It’s such a long time since I wrote.
I got lost in all of it, in life and going by the motions.
I wish I could say I’ve got it together, I mean after all this time I should have something together, right?
But, this being a christian thing, the whole being human thing. It’s hard. Individually hard and then you put them together and it’s a whole new set of challenges.
I know a lot of people who seem to have it down. The whole living by faith thing, and career thing. I know appearances are deceiving especially in this world we live in today with photoshop and looking good for the cameras.
It’s really frustrating though, so I come here and I read something I wrote, and the pain I’ve been in before and remember that it all passes and it’ll be okay. It has to be okay. So I stop comparing myself to other people, and how far they appear to have come, or how strong their faith looks compared to mine.
But, it’s still really difficult sometimes living the day by day. On days like today when i’m feeling empty, feeling lost, feeling disconnected, and weak in faith.
He says joy comes in the morning, He says all things work together for my good, so I have to believe it will all be okay.
It’s hard, it really is, and if i’m completely honest, I may not make it easy for myself sometimes but i’m trying.
God, help me live by faith. Give me the strength and wisdom to walk the path and trust You have it all under control. Amen.