Mope much?

In my moments of woe is me, I came across the verses quoted below. God has a sense of humor. There’s nothing i’m more certain of than that. I have been questioning a lot of my life over and over, trying to figure out why?! but, I am now reminded of all the other times God has come through for me, in small ways, and big ways but still I question Him.

But who are you, O man, to answer back to God? Will what is molded say to its molder, “Why have you made me like this?” Has the potter no right over the clay, to make out of the same lump one vessel for honorable use and another for dishonorable use? What if God, desiring to show his wrath and to make known his power, has endured with much patience vessels of wrath prepared for destruction, in order to make known the riches of his glory for vessels of mercy, which he has prepared beforehand for glory—even us whom he has called, not from the Jews only but also from the Gentiles? As indeed he says in Hosea, “Those who were not my people I will call ‘my people,’ and her who was not beloved I will call ‘beloved.’”

(Romans 9:20-25 ESV)

 

God is good, He has promised that He has it all planned out of our good, so why should we sit around and mop about all the things that are not working out? He is God, He created us, He has it all under control. So chill, breathe and enjoy the positive. Give the best you can in everything you have and stop focusing on everything that’s not working.

He has it covered.

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.

(John 14:27 ESV)

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May my heart one day dance.

I had not realized just how long it has been since I was on this page. I took a little break. To be honest I chose a path that had me spiraling toward the opposite direction. It all worked out for my good as He has promised, but my life is hardly perfect.

It’s very hard to believe everything the bible says about our life sometimes. I understand that the bible doesn’t promise a perfect happy life, but I don’t remember a part where it says I have to drown in darkness and pain for months, come out out triumphant only to be thrown back deeper. I walk around life with joy, gladness, a smile permanently plastered on my face, but my heart is far from what the world perceives my life to be.

I am grateful for the life I have been given. Grateful for person I am, I am not complaining. I just wish I could be filled with exuberance.

I want my heart to dance.

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Move that mountain.

Today, you may be facing a difficult situation and it’s making you feel like your hands are tied. Maybe the negative voices are constantly playing over and over, telling you that it’s not going to work out, or how impossible things seem. It’s true that your hands are tied in the natural, but always know God’s Hands are never tied. With God all things are possible. God can do whatever is necessary to bring you through. His Power is unlimited! Nothing is too difficult for Him!

It truly is a journey.

Being a Christian is tough.

Choosing the right thing over the more comfortable thing, is tough.

Listening to what God says about us, over the things that keep replaying in our heads is tough.

Life is challenging for everyone but it comes with an extra set of challenges for us. You don’t need the world to persecute you to feel the challenge. A lot of times, we persecute ourselves. Through self judgment, and comparison and just wanting to live a life we cannot. We beat ourselves up and the world really doesn’t have to.

For example, in my previous post I spoke about how badly thing have gone this year. One negative thing happened and I saw multiple other in my head and from those imaginary visions, I made choices that have been detrimental to my spiritual growth. No, I am not lost. I am grateful to God for that, but it’s really hard and we have to always remember that. Remember that just because some thing are not working out the way we want to. Or, things in our families/friends lives seem to be falling apart, does not make God any less in charge of the situation.

It only takes one bad thought for things to go out of hand, the evil one doesn’t need some big pathway to our hearts. The slightest opening and he pounces. We have to guide our thoughts, don’t let yourself go negative. When you seem to  be going down that way, recite a scripture. (this is where the memory verses we learned in Sunday school come in handy). Find the scripture that speaks to your situation and repeat it over and over till you believe. Keep His word with you always, in your heart and it will help you more than you can imagine.

I am doing better now. I have it together(somewhat), and I am still on this journey. Although the roud gets rough or we make a little stop now and a gain, the journey will not end till it’s over. It may not be easy, but it’s worth it.

He is worth it. So let’s not give up.

It’s not so random.


Everyone of us is governed by circumstances, we all have something weighing us down. No matter how good someone’s life may appear to be.

Today, I just want to remind you that, it’s not about what you think or what you see in others. Show care and concern no matter what. The person you meet today with the brightest smile, may be on their way to a suicide or planning to commit some other horrible self or public act. All because they feel no one cares. Love all, give a smile to that random stranger, say hi. (and anyway, how can you identify a criminal later, if you don’t even glance at the person seated next to you on the bus or wherever?). It doesn’t take much to show kindness but, it makes a really big difference. Seriously, pass that love around, someone out there needs it more than you can imagine.

Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience,
(Colossians 3:12 ESV)

Random acts of kindness, should not be random. It should be intentional and continuous, never stopping. Love never stops being love, it will never cease to exist or run out. So we have no excuse for not spreading it around generously.

“He who withholds kindness from a friend
forsakes the fear of the Almighty.
(Job 6:14 ESV)

Tests, and gratitude.

Life sometimes feels like a tornado sweeping through. A beautiful mess.

I’m looking for something positive to say, this week has been quite a trip. Honestly, I don’t even know what to say. If it wasn’t for my life, my health and family and all that good stuff I would have just gone insane. I’m not so sure about my liking of surprises anymore. I am officially one of those who like to know what’s about to happen before it happens. A let’s plan it out first type. Quite strange considering I have been pretty random in my previous life.. ha!

I don’t know what’s going on, but I really hope I figure it out. Or that it’s just a random week and next week will be normal again.

Anyway, I’m trying to keep it positive. Believe that there is a lesson in each of those things that have happened. It’s not easy especially when the stuff is happening so frequently but I still have so much be happy for. So much to thank God for. So i  pray that I have the wisdom to see the lessons in every situation and I pray the same for you.

It can get pretty wild when it seems you have absolutely no control of your own life, but when all is said and done we need to remember that God does have the control and He would never do anything to hurt us. So be encouraged, as I am in knowing that He is thinking of us.

 

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

 

Faith

I was told you were not there

It was all a figment of my imagination

That I believe in the unperceivable

Yet I still held on, kept believing.

A lot of times my faith has faltered

It seemed to me that I was all alone

Struggling to cradle my belief

Trying to press on

Fighting against all those who attempted to make me stop believing

But now I grow weak

Is it still worth it to keep believing?

Is still worth it to make so many enemies for something I have no proof of?

I try

I’ve held on for so long I need something

A sign

Anything because my strength, my faith is feeble.

I found this poem in some of my old documents, I wrote it a couple of years ago. Some of it still expresses some of the things I sometimes feel to this day. I am so grateful to God though, that I am not as low as I was then. I have seen the hand of God in my life. I know God exists. There’s no longer doubt. I cried out, and He heard my cry. My past is a testament to the existance of God, my joy and peace a testament to his wonderful unfailing love and grace. Praise be to God!

“Psalm 18:6 In my distress I called to the LORD; I cried to my God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears”

Online church is still church.. Right?

I’ll be honest, I don’t go to church. The last time I was in a church building was months ago and I was there for a wedding.

Yes, I am a christian. I love God with all my heart and read the bible daily. I just got disconnected from the church community sometime back, mostly because of the judgment and hypocrisy found in the Christian community nowadays. That caused my faith to shake and it took awhile before I had rebuilt a relationship with Christ. I am now very in love with Christ and want to learn so much more about Him and what God’s plans for me are.

I haven’t yet found a church(not that I have been looking to be honest), so I am still to go to church. Thing is, I am a huge internet junkie, and I’m online almost 24/7 and interact with a lot of other Christians. I stream services and pray with them virtually. So my question is does that count as “going to church”? I always comfort myself by “where two or more are gathered in my name, there will I be” In today’s age where the world has become so small and everything is done online can you call online church your home church? Say if I give my tithe to it and I’m fully committed to it?

Opinions will be appreciated.