Time to prove my trust.

I punish myself a lot for my mistakes. Always beating myself up for all the wrong things I’ve done. And I realize now, how that contradicts my claim to His grace.
I claim to believe that He forgave me, I claim to believe that His mercies are new every morning, yet here I am punishing myself for what has been wiped clean. It’s so funny how clearly I see it now. Every action I place in the name of self correction, is an action against trust in Him. How can I say I trust him when my deeds say I don’t believe I’m forgiven. When I’m constantly working to earn my redemption, like I don’t trust it was already given freely on the cross.