I am in awe of Him. I honestly don’t have any idea how to explain how I became the person I am today in comparison to who I was even a week ago. I know a lot of people would say that it’s growing up or any number of explanations, but there’s so much more to the change I constantly go through in my mind and spirit.
I have never been much of a pray for people type of person, I cared about people and all but it didn’t really affect me as much(their lives and all that). This days though, I find myself feeling immensely invested in people even those I don’t know. I feel this need to pray for people, and I can’t even tell you how many times I have found myself crying for people I don’t even know. I am way too connected to my emotional side nowadays, more that I can even try to explain.
I pray for change in me daily. I pray for maturity in my faith, and courage to do what has been set for me in this journey. Despite the fact that I know that God hears and He answers prayers, I still get really amazed when I see change in me. It’s beyond anything and everything. A lot of us, know that God can mould us into who we are meant to be, but we don’t really believe it. He says, ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, if only we would believe that. There’s so much He has in store for us.
The one thing my grandmother(who is my number one inspiration), has always told me is to pray. Prayer is our primary way of communicating with God. So I pray, when I’m walking, or at my desk in the office, I pray. I have prayed for everything imaginable. I can be very silly when it comes to that sometimes but, even the most trivial of desires are desires still. So, I lay it all down. I know that God is sovereign and He is God and He deserves all the honour, glory and respect but, I also knows that God loves me and knows my heart. I can’t pretend not to want because He already knows what’s in my heart, so the one primary thing I have learnt to do is pray that he changes my heart to want what He want for me. To live how He wants me to live. To serve those He want me to serve. So His will for my life can come to pass. As I continue to pray for my life and the lives that are affected by mine(which includes you), I continue to see a change in me. I am still so far from a true reflection of Christ but, I am also very far from the person I used to be.
I am grateful to God for this far He has brought me. I am in awe of what He has done and humbled by all I know He is capable of.
I know God can change hearts, He changed mine. He showed me love like I never knew before. I also know He can do that for anyone else who asks. That’s all you need to do. No fancy language or vocabulary. Just you talking to your Father and creator. Sharing your deepest secrets and desires with your one true love. He is the best friend of all best friends. The one that will never disappoint. I am truly in love with Him. He listens, He leads and He answers prayers so, if you want to know His love just ask.
“Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened. Or which one of you, if his son asks him for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a serpent? If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him!
(Matthew 7:7-11 ESV)