Our Purpose

They say tests and trials come to make us stronger. That we should pray for them, that if you are having an easy life then you should know there’s a problem. Well, my life must be perfect really because stuff has been so crazy! It’s like a constant beat down.

Right now, it’s actually quite hilarious how today has gone down so far. My work mate, really messed me up in ways I can’t really get into at the moment but I was so angry. Honestly, I can’t even describe how mad I was. Thinking that I now have to go through some really crazy process to undo a mess I have been put in by someone simply because he was too proud and stubborn to listen to the instructions I had given him. But then I looked at his face and he was beating himself so much about the situation he put me in. I ended up feeling sorry for the guy. See I had forgiven him but there’s this thing we do(most of us at least), letting a guy stew in guilt for a while before you act normal around them again. I know it’s not just me who does that. Anyway, I wasn’t really going to do that but I had to collect myself before I did or said something stupid(this time. hehe). I let go. Because of the guilt on his face, I just let it go. I can hold a grudge, I’m ashamed to admit it but, when I get mad I am capable of staying mad for a long time. So it’s quite fascinating that I was okay so quickly. Not really a surprise though because,

I prayed.

Right when I found out, I prayed. That is probably why my empathy was so heightened. Why I can laugh in-spite of the up hill task I have ahead of me. Nothing is impossible, not for God it’s not.

It’s been really wild since last week. My fears have been tested, my humility has been tested, my patience, my faithfulness and commitment to God. I may have not come out perfect but, I am still trying.

I know I am not alone, and I know I cannot fail.

So I keep pushing, to know Him and have Him shine through in all I do.

I have no greater purpose in life than that.

Verse for today:

Romans 8:7-9(MSG)

7 Focusing on the self is the opposite of focusing on God. Anyone completely absorbed in self ignores God, ends up thinking more about self than God. That person ignores who God is and what he is doing.8 And God isn’t pleased at being ignored.

9 But if God himself has taken up residence in your life, you can hardly be thinking more of yourself than of him. Anyone, of course, who has not welcomed this invisible but clearly present God, the Spirit of Christ, won’t know what we’re talking about

Tests, and gratitude.

Life sometimes feels like a tornado sweeping through. A beautiful mess.

I’m looking for something positive to say, this week has been quite a trip. Honestly, I don’t even know what to say. If it wasn’t for my life, my health and family and all that good stuff I would have just gone insane. I’m not so sure about my liking of surprises anymore. I am officially one of those who like to know what’s about to happen before it happens. A let’s plan it out first type. Quite strange considering I have been pretty random in my previous life.. ha!

I don’t know what’s going on, but I really hope I figure it out. Or that it’s just a random week and next week will be normal again.

Anyway, I’m trying to keep it positive. Believe that there is a lesson in each of those things that have happened. It’s not easy especially when the stuff is happening so frequently but I still have so much be happy for. So much to thank God for. So i  pray that I have the wisdom to see the lessons in every situation and I pray the same for you.

It can get pretty wild when it seems you have absolutely no control of your own life, but when all is said and done we need to remember that God does have the control and He would never do anything to hurt us. So be encouraged, as I am in knowing that He is thinking of us.

 

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

 

Catch up..

 

I’m so sorry for my lack of posts lately. I started a new job and it took me a while to readjust myself schedule wise and even when I was online I ended up doing more pinning that anything else. (for shame!)

Anyway, I’m doing alright. Happy and blessed and really inspired for no apparent reason.

I’m really learning to be humble lately, I was used to doing a certain job and now I want to shift career lines so I had to pick something that to be honest I never thought I’d ever doing just so I have a foundation towards my new career. It’s funny how I have prayed for humility for so long then God gives me this particular job. When it was offered to me I was really amused, I knew it was my lesson my test and I came here and chose to give it what I have because I know God has put me here as an answer to my prayer. I am humbled and I love it. I should also add that I really like the job. The people here are so nice and friendly.

I’m grateful to God for my prayer answered and I pray that I learn to listen to Him in everything that happens in my life. He is awesome and He listens and answers prayers. All you have to do is ask.

The verse for today comes from,

Hebrews 4:14-16

14 Since then we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus, the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession. 15 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been Tempted as we are, yet without sin. 16 Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.

This has really uplifted me and I thought I share it today. A guy was passing by our office and saw me reading my bible and shared it with me yesterday. He made my day.

 

Called to L-O-V-E.

I can’t stop singing to God even when i’m sinning against Him. I feel so flawed so dirty so unworthy. But I have no where else to turn so I bow my head in shame and cry..

I have this habit of retracting from society and hiding away by myself when things start slipping from me. It’s a bad habit. I know I should always be with people, especially in those low moments,  but I find myself seeking solitude and although sometimes I pick myself up immediately. Other times I find myself falling even lower and it’s sad. It’s sad that I feel safe alone, sad that with all the experiences and things I’ve witnessed I find it hard to be completely be honest with people. I know no one is perfect and I have never expected anyone to be, and I have also tried to share my imperfections, mostly because of this deep fear of becoming a hypocrite.

I don’t want to appear to be something i’m out. yet i’m not completely comfortable exposing all my flaws and short comings. See I believe Jesus died for my sins, I believe He died that I may have life and live without shame. But looking at people and how they react to things, seeing how fellow Christians act towards those who have fallen short in one way or the other makes it really difficult for me to come out and say, “hey, see I did that too. I messed up, can you walk with me through this”.

Maybe i’m the problem, maybe I have trust issues..

Wait, I can’t be the only problem. Despite the fact that I may not be so okay with full disclosure because of my own issues and things in my life, I know for a fact that there is a problem out there as well. I know that there is judgement, I know there is condemnation and chastising in some places among certain Christian communities and I don’t understand why.

I want to give myself fully to God. Live my live fully for Him. Stay pure and be a positive impact for Him in every place I go, but I fail. I mess up A LOT  and I just want to be okay with crying to someone when I’m feeling that shame when I’ve done something stupid and not have to worry about what happens to me next. Stories of people being kicked out of churches for being pregnant, or being treated strange by fellow members of the church for whatever thing they did. Honestly! By the time someone is coming to you to confess, they already know they did wrong the guilt tripping and hoops, just crazy! My sins were forgiven, I am a new creation in Christ. Why do you choose to punish me when the punishment was already taken care of?

It’s one thing to correct and a whole other thing to condemn. We all have sinned, we still sin but God because of His amazing grace and mercy gave His son for us. Yet we choose to put each other through that again? It makes no sense to me.

I am a big advocate of love. I truly believe love changes things. I believe showing love and grace is the only way to go. None of us deserve anything yet we were shown mercy and given life. It shouldn’t be such a task to do the same for others.

We need to put Christ back on top. He has to come first. That’s the only way we’ll remember to show love and mercy.

We need God. For our relationships and interactions to be genuine and loving.

God has to come first. So that before you judge someone you empathize and try to see through their eyes.

So that we may be able to guide each other in love and teach each other.

It breaks my heart to imagine the many who suffer through secret sin because they fear they’ll lose friends(in church). Or those who live in shame because they have no one to tell them they have nothing to be ashamed of, that it was all taken care of at the cross. Christ has to be greater in us. Live like He lived, and love like He loved.

We are called to love. Let us love.

We cannot claim to serve a God who is love and have no love in us.

Love is so much more that words, it’s manifested in our everyday life and interactions. In our relationships.

Healed!

It’s been such a crazy week/two not even sure but I know it was painful and I am so grateful  to be here healthy and strong and able to read all the blogs! Woohoo! I am indeed joyous! I can talk, I can sing, I can shout, I can eat, I can walk about! I’ve got a reason to dance and shout!

 

Psalms 98

1 Sing to the Lord a new song,
for he has done marvelous things;
his right hand and his holy arm
have worked salvation for him.

2 The Lord has made his salvation known
and revealed his righteousness to the nations.

3 He has remembered his love
and his faithfulness to Israel;
all the ends of the earth have seen
the salvation of our God.

4 Shout for joy to the Lord, all the earth,
burst into jubilant song with music;

5 make music to the Lord with the harp,
with the harp and the sound of singing,

6 with trumpets and the blast of the ram’s horn—
shout for joy before the Lord, the King.

7 Let the sea resound, and everything in it,
the world, and all who live in it.

8 Let the rivers clap their hands,
let the mountains sing together for joy;

 

What’s your reason to have joy today?

My body, His temple.

This verse has been resounding in my head the past couple of days

“Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God?  You are not your own;  you were bought at a price.  Therefore honor God with your body,” (1 Cor. 6:19-20)” 

It’s one of those verses, we’ve heard a lot, we’ve read a lot but how many of us really internalize what that actually means? How often do we treat our bodies like we know the holy spirit is in us? I know there’s a couple of times i’ve done really stupid things and i found myself doing the whole. “i’m sorry” but soon afterwards proceeding like it was nothing.

The holy spirit, lives in us!

Inside us, our thoughts, our actions, every thing about us He sees, He feels. That’s big! But, what does that really mean to us? Is just about doing the right thing?

It dawned on me during my quiet moments that it’s really not just about my thought or the basic do unto others or other characteristics of Christianity. It’s about everything. Every single thing about me affects Him. My body is His! It’s not just about sex, and immorality. We have this way of summarizing verses and making it what we want it to be instead of reading it for what it is. The verse says, “honor God with your body”. I’ve run that verse over and over in my head and what came to mind was Matthew 21:12, where  Jesus drives out the buyers and sellers at the temple. He was angry that the temple was defiled. A building built for prayer. How much more value are we? We are home to The Holy Spirit. Yet we defile ourselves. We dishonor God’s temple.

We dishonor Him by our lack of self control, doing whatever little thing that our eye lusts for without minding the end result. Yet we know that the Holy Spirit can easily grant us self control if we ask for it. We dishonor Him by our lack of discipline, our inability to master our bodies. Not taking care of ourselves as we should. From our eating habits to our lifestyle choices, if it causes harm to the body then it harms Him. Everything about us matters, we are here for a purpose and He expects us to take care of ourselves and have enough respect for ourselves and our bodies in order represent Him well. We are expected to always be self aware, to remember who we are and to remain pure. Without that we really can’t be differentiated from others.

Be mindful what you let in the temple. Your thoughts, your emotions, what you see, what you hear, what you eat(and how you eat), it all matters. Keep yourself healthy, mind body, and soul. Because, Our bodies are our worship

Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God–this is your spiritual act of worship. (Romans 12:1)

My Romance.

I feel this great big “thing” in my heart today. I’m overwhelmed by how amazing God’s love is.

I am so unworthy, and a lot of times I focus on how much I sin and overlook how much He loves me.

Today, I focus on that.

I am in awe of His love for me.

I am in awe of His grace and mercy in my life. I may not deserve any of it but He still gave it, freely. He is an amazing God.

Today, I challenge you to focus on that. His amazing goodness! He loves you beyond anything you could imagine, just because He wants to. Don’t beat yourself up for your failures, or your mistakes, or how you can’t seem to shrug of that sin. He still loves you. He chose you.

To Him be all the glory! He is an awesome God! He loves us. 🙂

 

Keeping the momentum.

I can’t really explain it by my Christian life has always been quite easy.  I prayed for change and God gave it to me. My flaws my personal battles were all so much simpler.

Then this year begun, 2012, and everything changed, now it all feels so difficult. I seem to keep falling, constantly seeking forgiveness for things I haven’t done in years. My past sins seem to be chasing me down.

It really scared me, watching this downward spiral I seemed to be on so I took a step back and looked at my life how I’ve been living it for the past month.

Its really interesting and frightening to see how easily it is to fall away from faith. I’m not saying I have, and I’m really grateful to God for giving me the ability to see my life and to be honest with myself about right and wrong because without that I would be so far gone. Anyway, I’m just saying that within a month I have been able to go so many steps back from my salvation just because of certain lifestyle choices that society deems normal and okay. Maybe it was the holidays and the whole family being around or maybe I was just looking for an excuse but I ended up listening to music I don’t listen to anymore, watching shows I  don’t watch and soon enough my mind went straight to things I haven’t thought in a while. And it was suddenly okay for those few minutes to think those things, do those things.

Media has a lot of power and if we don’t control it it controls us. When I let things in my head, through my favorite shows, through music, through my interactions (physical or otherwise), they become my thoughts. The thoughts grow and consume me and before I know it  things that I haven’t struggled with become a problem. Things that never tempted me before become addictions. It’s really crazy how it works but the fact is, it does. You watch a lot of sensual material, you won’t be thinking about vegetables all day – trust me. What we let in becomes us and it’s so important to watch out. Watch what you let yourself see, watch what you let yourself hear, they become your thoughts and your thoughts consume your heart.

Don’t tempt yourself.

James 1:13-15 NIV

When tempted, no one should say, “God is tempting me.” For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; but each person is tempted when they are dragged away by their own evil desire and enticed. Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.

To whom it may concern

What kind of example are you to those that look up to you? Do you do your best to live a Christ-like life or do you preach water and drink wine? Don’t let this be a letter to you from those that look up to you.

Dear [insert name],

I’m so angry right now, imagining the risks that you take not putting any of us into consideration. while you gamble your life, our lives away for a measly 2 second thrill. Makes me wonder what we are worth really, what you think you’re worth? Is your cheap thrill more important than us?

You keep judging me for the mistakes I make, but you, older and wiser – well age is meant to come with wisdom but clearly not the case for you- but still, how do you judge me. How do you look past all your flaws, all those very stupid things you do with the experience and knowledge you have.  Compared to you I could as well be an amateur at living, are you not meant to be my guide, my mentor? The one to lead and direct my unfocused soul? How do YOU then point your finger at me for not knowing for doing the things I’m expected to do? to learn? For how else do I know it’s wrong if not by trying? If I have no teacher to instruct my untrained mind, what choice do I have but to experiment?

If I fail you only have yourself to blame, if I seem to be lacking, then point that finger at yourself for not giving me that which you see missing in me. For I assure you I’ve done my best and lived as well as I know how.

We all have a responsibility to be examples, as Christians, lovers of God. We are obligated to be the light.

So let’s be the light. Don’t make your brothers stumble and when you’re weak admit you are and find strength in others and in God. For God is strong in our weakness. I t really hurts to imagine someone going to hell because they thought their sin was okay because the Christians they knew did it. It’s a sad thing to imagine and I don’t want to be the one to do that.I know you don’t either so please, let us be the light to the lost. Let us be the ones leading the way. Giving second chances and sharing Gods wonderful grace. Let’s be Christ-ians.

 

“1 Corinthians 8:9-12

9 Be careful, however, that the exercise of your rights does not become a stumbling block to the weak. 10 For if someone with a weak conscience sees you, with all your knowledge, eating in an idol’s temple, won’t that person be emboldened to eat what is sacrificed to idols? 11 So this weak brother or sister, for whom Christ died, is destroyed by your knowledge. 12 When you sin against them in this way and wound their weak conscience, you sin against Christ.”

 

(I wrote the above letter for a completely different purpose but when I read it through I knew it was meant for this)