My body, His temple.

This verse has been resounding in my head the past couple of days

“Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God?  You are not your own;  you were bought at a price.  Therefore honor God with your body,” (1 Cor. 6:19-20)” 

It’s one of those verses, we’ve heard a lot, we’ve read a lot but how many of us really internalize what that actually means? How often do we treat our bodies like we know the holy spirit is in us? I know there’s a couple of times i’ve done really stupid things and i found myself doing the whole. “i’m sorry” but soon afterwards proceeding like it was nothing.

The holy spirit, lives in us!

Inside us, our thoughts, our actions, every thing about us He sees, He feels. That’s big! But, what does that really mean to us? Is just about doing the right thing?

It dawned on me during my quiet moments that it’s really not just about my thought or the basic do unto others or other characteristics of Christianity. It’s about everything. Every single thing about me affects Him. My body is His! It’s not just about sex, and immorality. We have this way of summarizing verses and making it what we want it to be instead of reading it for what it is. The verse says, “honor God with your body”. I’ve run that verse over and over in my head and what came to mind was Matthew 21:12, where  Jesus drives out the buyers and sellers at the temple. He was angry that the temple was defiled. A building built for prayer. How much more value are we? We are home to The Holy Spirit. Yet we defile ourselves. We dishonor God’s temple.

We dishonor Him by our lack of self control, doing whatever little thing that our eye lusts for without minding the end result. Yet we know that the Holy Spirit can easily grant us self control if we ask for it. We dishonor Him by our lack of discipline, our inability to master our bodies. Not taking care of ourselves as we should. From our eating habits to our lifestyle choices, if it causes harm to the body then it harms Him. Everything about us matters, we are here for a purpose and He expects us to take care of ourselves and have enough respect for ourselves and our bodies in order represent Him well. We are expected to always be self aware, to remember who we are and to remain pure. Without that we really can’t be differentiated from others.

Be mindful what you let in the temple. Your thoughts, your emotions, what you see, what you hear, what you eat(and how you eat), it all matters. Keep yourself healthy, mind body, and soul. Because, Our bodies are our worship

Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God–this is your spiritual act of worship. (Romans 12:1)

Away with the rules!

This Christianity thing is hard!

Honestly, I’ve always been a “do the right thing”, type of person but I never actually thought about it or looked at it the way I do now. Everything is so different, now I can’t do the right thing just for the heck of it being right. I don’t know how to explain it really but, I do things with meaning and purpose or else they are not worth doing them.

Most people think of Christianity and see a long list of don’ts. All these seemingly wonderful things that you miss out on when you choose Christ. Luke warm looks so good when you look at it that way. Imagining how much you’ll miss out on waking up in a ditch somewhere, having sex with random strangers and all that wonderful stuff.. I know, I went a bit on the extreme about that, but considering all sin is equal in the eyes of God, does it really matter what example I used? It’s difficult, turning away from those little pleasures we have grown so accustomed to. Especially when the world says it’s okay, it’s all normal.

We have this list of rules, the ten commandments. They are hard, honestly most of us can’t even get past the first one without sinning.

 The Ten Commandments (Exodus 20:2-17 NKJV)
1 “I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage. You shall have no other gods before Me. (this includes and is not limited to: yourself, your possessions, your job, your loved ones, your money)
2 “You shall not make for yourself a carved image, or any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth; you shall not bow down to them nor serve them. For I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children to the third and fourth generations of those who hate Me, but showing mercy to thousands, to those who love Me and keep My Commandments. (refer to the first commadment)
3 “You shall not take the name of the Lord your God in vain, for the Lord will not hold him guiltless who takes His name in vain. (have you ever said oh my __?)
4 “Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy. Six days you shall labor and do all your work, but the seventh day is the Sabbath of the Lord your God. In it you shall do no work: you, nor your son, nor your daughter, nor your male servant, nor your female servant, nor your cattle, nor your stranger who is within your gates. For in six days the Lord made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, and rested the seventh day. Therefore the Lord blessed the Sabbath day and hallowed it.(I honestly can’t even get into this one)
5 “Honor your father and your mother, that your days may be long upon the land which the Lord your God is giving you.(well, we could start with the meaning of honor but i’m sure the parents have gotten the opposite of this at some point)
6 “You shall not murder. (if you have thought then it’s the same thing, so add that here)
7 “You shall not commit adultery.(refer to previous)
8 “You shall not steal.(yes this includes that pen)
9 “You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor. (liar, liar, pants on fire)
10 “You shall not covet your neighbor’s house; you shall not covet your neighbor’s wife, nor his male servant, nor his female servant, nor his ox, nor his donkey, nor anything that is your neighbor’s.” (lust! i’m sure you know what that is)

So is there anyone who’s clean? Can anyone honestly say that it’s easy to follow those rules/guidelines or whatever you choose to call them? I doubt it. So why choose to focus on that? Why do we always focus on our failures and try so hard to be perfect when deep down we know we cannot?

Trying is good, it’s very important for us to work hard to do what is right but our focus cannot be on attaining perfection. I personally believe Christianity is actually defined by LOVE! We are asked to love God and each other, that’s the mot important thing. Instead of focusing on right and wrong, we should focus on love. Focus on caring for those around us and doing what is right by them. If we truly honest about doing that in the end we realize that everything else fall into place. Loving God through worship and devotion and study of the word and loving our neighbors.  When you focus on Him, you want to do what is pleasing to Him. You are unashamed to be associated with Him. It’s do or die and completely amazing. And when you love others, you want what’s best for them at all times and doing things that will cause them harm is the least likely thing you could ever do.


LOVE. So much easier that tip toeing around rules don’t you think?

1 Peter 4:8 (NIV)

8 Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.

Kim Kardashian.

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I was on twitter yesterday and apparently it was bash on Kim Kardashian day on my timeline. I don’t really follow her life or her shows or anything, but her being such a high profile celebrity, I know the basics. well at-least what I’ve seen on my timeline and on Facebook. Personally I am very disgusted by how easily people can kick others when they’re down. Honestly, when did celebrity turn into a cloak of invincibility? I can’t imagine what it feels like to mess up and know that millions of people know what I did and will judge me for it for the rest of my life. I’m a regular person and I stress out to the point of depression sometimes for my unknown sin blow it up times a million and I would probably need an asylum or something. Life is hard for everyone, and no one needs a constant reminder of their mistakes. I feel really bad for famous people. It’s a difficult lifestyle to choose to live.

I watched some show that was trying to explain celebrity and the spiraling that happens in most celebs lives at one point or the other. The report claimed that celebrities have some form of narcissistic syndrome or something. Basically, they were trying to put it all on the celebrity and their choices. I get that we all make our choices and all of that, but the public have to take some responsibility for the madness. If it wasn’t for the public’s insane need to know every little detail about these peoples lives, and the love for tragedy, things would not be this bad. Fame is like a drug, once you get that high, you want it more and more. If the only time you get the attention is when you do something crazy, then why would you do anything but that? After all your career depends on it. We are responsible for ourselves, but we are also responsible for each other.

Kim Kardashian is trying to clean herself up, pick up the pieces and people throw her past in her face? Honestly?!  We drive people to the edge then wonder how they got there. It’s really sad, how hard it is to encourage others and I’m tired of seeing all the celebrity tragedies! A little compassion goes a long way. Rehab can only do so much.

I was happy to see a few positive tweets to her though, but not enough. We need to change how we do things.Show some compassion, give a little grace.


If tears could really wash out our souls. I’m sure you’ve had those moments when you thought that.

What if, you could cry all the pain out, wash all that inner crud, shame and all that stuff out? Wouldn’t it be wonderful?? I know for a fact I wouldn’t mind it.

Those times when not even words can describe what you feel.

Times when you wish it could all just stop for a second.

Looking at my life now, it’s amusing how crazy things have gone. Life is funny(not haha), it’s funny though, how it’s pulls you in only to let you go. Crazy little thing it is.

When you feel like you are at the bottom and the earth cracks and you fall lower, spiraling. Seems endless, wishing you’d crash to your death just so the agony ends. Life catches you, just for little while, just so you forget then it let’s you go..

Free fall!

It’s maddening how we walk around, interacting with people without a clue what is going on in their heads.

A smile is easy to fake. An “i’m doing okay” is an easy lie.

We all have issues true, but some have it worse. Some are completely torn on the inside.

If tears could clean out our souls.

If tears could take the pain away.

But they don’t, and all we have is seconds, minutes, hours of agony and pain to endure.

Why should we survive it, when we have each other?

My tears don’t help much.

A sincere, “how have you been” just might.

Love, and honest concern and care for me from you.

That’s all anyone asks for.

Are you doing your parts?

Before tears run out and insanity takes over.

Before tears turn to blood.

Before pain turns to death.

I’m open to knowing you more, open to being a friend.

After all what else would I be living for if not to bring comfort to other.

Even in the slightest.

My purpose is to love, because I am loved.

Where did grace go?

I’ve been reading blogs and just observing the world around me and it honestly is driving me nuts. See i’m the type of person that really feels stuff, empathy on steroids type of person. I love God and I take His word very seriously,(every word).

See my problem is, everything seems to be going down hill. I don’t get it at all. I get really mad when I go on websites and read harsh criticism from Christians to other Christians. What happened to loving our neighbours? What happened to being our brothers keepers? What happened to grace?

It’s really exhausting reading a blog by a christian who’s harshly breaking a fellow christian down for whatever sin. Even more painful is cursing someone out when they have openly confessed and repented for said the sin. The bible clearly says to forgive. So when exactly did it become okay to be self righteous and act like we don’t sin? When did we take God’s place in terms of judging others? We make it seem normal to make people jump through hoops to earn forgiveness when forgiveness is freely given by God to anyone who repents.

It really breaks my heart that we find it so hard to be gracious. there’s a very big difference between correcting someone and making them feel worthless. It’s very easy to miss the mark (clearly) and we need to be cautious when going to someone who has wronged us, the church or whatever else the sin is. Be careful not to make ourselves gods, for there can only be one God and He is not us. 

The bible says in Matthew 18:15-17 “If your brother sins against you, go and show him his fault, just between the two of you. If he listens to you, you have won your brother over. But if he does not listen, take one or two others along with you, that every charge may be established by the evidence of two or three witnesses. If he refuses to listen to them, tell it to the church. And if he refuses to listen even to the church, let him be to you as a Gentile and a tax collector.

It’s important to give people a chance, an opportunity to change. Correct each other with love and not with the intention of embarrassing each other or making ourselves look purer or better. None of is good, if it wasn’t for Jesus dying we would all have perished. Yet we seem to forget and put our own selfish pride and needs before building each other. We are the church, the body of Christ. If we break each other in the end we actually are breaking ourselves. Very stupid if you ask me, like punching yourself in the face because your nose snorted on someone. Where does that get you? Everything works together. So either build or break.(i figure a dumb thing, deserves a dumb example)

Romans 14:1-12

1 Accept the one whose faith is weak, without quarreling over disputable matters. 2 One person’s faith allows them to eat anything, but another, whose faith is weak, eats only vegetables. 3 The one who eats everything must not treat with contempt the one who does not, and the one who does not eat everything must not judge the one who does, for God has accepted them. 4 Who are you to judge someone else’s servant? To their own master, servants stand or fall. And they will stand, for the Lord is able to make them stand.

 5 One person considers one day more sacred than another; another considers every day alike. Each of them should be fully convinced in their own mind. 6 Whoever regards one day as special does so to the Lord. Whoever eats meat does so to the Lord, for they give thanks to God; and whoever abstains does so to the Lord and gives thanks to God. 7 For none of us lives for ourselves alone, and none of us dies for ourselves alone. 8 If we live, we live for the Lord; and if we die, we die for the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord. 9 For this very reason, Christ died and returned to life so that he might be the Lord of both the dead and the living.

 10 You, then, why do you judge your brother or sister? Or why do you treat them with contempt? For we will all stand before God’s judgment seat. 11 It is written:

   “‘As surely as I live,’ says the Lord, 
‘every knee will bow before me; 
   every tongue will acknowledge God.’”

 12 So then, each of us will give an account of ourselves to God.

In the end, we are all accountable to God. His free grace is not to be earned. Neither is His love.

Keeping the momentum.

I can’t really explain it by my Christian life has always been quite easy.  I prayed for change and God gave it to me. My flaws my personal battles were all so much simpler.

Then this year begun, 2012, and everything changed, now it all feels so difficult. I seem to keep falling, constantly seeking forgiveness for things I haven’t done in years. My past sins seem to be chasing me down.

It really scared me, watching this downward spiral I seemed to be on so I took a step back and looked at my life how I’ve been living it for the past month.

Its really interesting and frightening to see how easily it is to fall away from faith. I’m not saying I have, and I’m really grateful to God for giving me the ability to see my life and to be honest with myself about right and wrong because without that I would be so far gone. Anyway, I’m just saying that within a month I have been able to go so many steps back from my salvation just because of certain lifestyle choices that society deems normal and okay. Maybe it was the holidays and the whole family being around or maybe I was just looking for an excuse but I ended up listening to music I don’t listen to anymore, watching shows I  don’t watch and soon enough my mind went straight to things I haven’t thought in a while. And it was suddenly okay for those few minutes to think those things, do those things.

Media has a lot of power and if we don’t control it it controls us. When I let things in my head, through my favorite shows, through music, through my interactions (physical or otherwise), they become my thoughts. The thoughts grow and consume me and before I know it  things that I haven’t struggled with become a problem. Things that never tempted me before become addictions. It’s really crazy how it works but the fact is, it does. You watch a lot of sensual material, you won’t be thinking about vegetables all day – trust me. What we let in becomes us and it’s so important to watch out. Watch what you let yourself see, watch what you let yourself hear, they become your thoughts and your thoughts consume your heart.

Don’t tempt yourself.

James 1:13-15 NIV

When tempted, no one should say, “God is tempting me.” For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; but each person is tempted when they are dragged away by their own evil desire and enticed. Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death.

He is!

God is. That is one concept a lot of us don’t seem to get. God IS.

Our GOd does NOT dwell in the past, present, or future. He is outside time. A lot of times people think that God has seen it all and is sitting in heaven just watching what he knew would happen happen. That’s not our God, our God is.  Whatever you’re going through now, God is,  whatever you go through tomorrow, God is. He is not in a certain time or space, He is time and space.
Which means that for those of you who are sinners, God doesn’t have your judgment written up and waiting for you, NO! God is right there with you crying for your soul waiting for you to choose Him. Our God, the God of second, third and hundrendth chances.
He is. Right now, just for you.  

My first day at church

so today, I woke up like any other Sunday with plans to do my regular errands and listen to my favorite church podcasts when the strangest thing happened.. I got in the shower and joined my family on their way to church. It really weird really, since i never go let alone have the urge to(well, not counting my mother’s guilt trips). o for me to do so very strange. Anyway, I went to church and it got even stranger, I am a loner and I prefer to stay in the car when the service is over while the rest mingle and chat. Today, the mingler came to me.. Within 15minutes I had been added to 3 different meetings which I always avoid and made many new friends. I find it quite hilarious actually, me, the loner who’ always looking for any chance to be away from crowds all of a sudden “forced” into social settings and I’m okay with it. A few months ago I would have protested and made any excuse not to now not so much.

God is awesome, I am in awe of His works. He does things in interesting ways. I am back to the church officially and I am at peace. 🙂

It was a good day.

How was your Sunday?

stuck like magic glue.

I am an introvert, a thinker. I spend most days staring at nothing pondering on what life is and what it could blossom into. Blossom, well, not always the word for the thoughts in my head, sometimes no. Most times I’m thinking what life will wither into. The darkness and gloom that hovers over me. The pain and hurt, crashing me into a ball of  negativity and hopelessness.

Life, funny little thing it is. One day, you’re up, another your down, but some things remain constant. Depending on the environment and the things you are exposed to some negative things, will always haunt you.


Since the whole campaign began, I haven’t really thought about labels to be honest. I chose my safe route, the escape. Houdini has nothing on me I tell you. But today, my labels hit me smack in the face. I couldn’t run and I won’t run, at least not today.

Passionless, worthless and lacking in direction. Words stuck to my shadow, like ghosts they haunt me, in my moments of quiet reflection. Stuck to me like glue. As much as I’d like to say, I know I am not any of those things, the words have been thrown at me for so long that I believe them.

I feel it now more than ever, feels like I’m wasting away, wasting breath, wasting a life. I wonder if I will ever actually do that which is purposed for my life? Or will I just roam about the planet only to discover my life is over and I need to answer to my maker.

I don’t really want to think like that, those who have been reading my blog know that I always choose to follow the positive route in most situations. This though, is a difficult one. When I have all these people around me declaring their plans for my life, all the things they had imagined and envisioned and then I throw in my “little” plans. The obvious disappointment in their faces. The condescension from those who have apparently “made it” in life. The hints that my plans are not enough, not worth the mention. It breaks my heart.

The thing is despite the fact that I know that God has grand plans for me. Despite the fact that I know that my vision and plans are good and for the glory of God, I still let people make me feel like trash. I let my goals, my plans, my calling be overshadowed by other people ideas. I let them be drowned in societal ideals. I let myself be dragged down to the ground by words, by looks, by suggestions. Just because my idea of success does not revolve around money and material things, just because I choose to be different from everyone else, I am labeled passionless and lacking in direction and I take it?!

It ends now! No more.

No more, letting everyone else drown God in me.

No more, listening and believing lies about me.

No more doubting God’s presence and control of my life.

I’m done!

I am not of this world, I am His and this world will NOT decide who I am and what I am meant to be.

He has a plan for my life, He has a purpose for my life, I am called, and I am loved. The world and all the societal noise… Now just noise, white noise.



During my time away from the internet, I’ve been thinking a lot. I’ve had all these ideas of things I could write, things I wanted your opinions on, but just like me to forget to jot them down for later. So sadly, all those things are gone, floating away in my mind somewhere.

Anyway, the one thing that has really had me flustered the whole idea of talents and gifts. We all have something. That one thing or many things, you’ve been blessed with, to bless others with.

How many of us really use them? Are you like me? Do you have a million excuses for not doing the things you know you have been called to do? I am one of those who have been immensely blessed. I am also one of those that waste the blessings. Why? Because I can’t afford, because I need to go to school, because I don’t have the resources, because…. The list is endless.

The bible says in the book of Romans 12:8 we have different gifts according to the grace given to us. We have already been given the grace required to use our gifts. If your gift is listening, you really don’t need to go to some university to study counseling. You have been graced by God to use that gift right now. That’s one thing that has yet to sink in to a lot of us, me included. We are so accustomed to certain avenues in life, that we forget that God is the one to open the doors to our future. He has our whole life written. He knows it all. Yet when He says we have the grace to go out and prophesy, the grace to serve, to teach, to lead, we look at Him and say “God, please provide for my fees  to go study this and that” yet we already can go and do it.

You don’t need a degree in theology to teach the word of God, the word of God is the same and will always be the same. If you know God loves you, you know Jesus Christ is the only way to salvation, you know that God is with you  and His plans for your life are good, why do you need a piece of paper to feel validated? Isn’t His word enough?  I’m not saying don’t go to school. I have gone to school, and I know the importance of an education. I’m just saying that we need to stop using it as an excuse to not follow our calling. We are not all wealthy but we are all called, finances can also not be an excuse.

Whatever it is we are required of God to do, we can do in our communities, online, in our families, in our churches and so forth. You certainly don’t need millions to go and listen and be a shoulder to your hurting neighbours’. We can do a lot if we put our minds to it and stop letting the devil trick us into complacency and living lives God hasn’t intended for us. It’s about time we got up and just did it.  After all we will be held accountable when the time comes for all the gifts we were given, we really need to start to realize that. Each of us has been given according to our ability, according to the grace God has for us. God knows that we can achieve so much with what we already have so not doing it is seen as laziness and simply lack of willingness to do as is required of us


Matthew 25:29-30

– 29 for everyone who has will have abundance. Whoever doesn’t have, even what he has will be taken from him. 30 and throw that worthless servant outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth. – Please Read Matt 25:14-30, the parable of the talents.