I don’t want to be an emotionalist, a sensationalist.
To rely solely on what I feel and be all excitable about things because of other peoples attitudes towards it.
Or because of their emotional reactions or sensationalization.
I want my faith and relationship with God to be real. To be consistent. Whether the environment is positive or negative, hot or cold. Whether those around me are excited or not.
I want to rely solely on God for my spiritual fulfilment, for my joy.I don’t want to rely on sweet music or pretty words to get me excited to spend time with God. I want my worship to be authentic. I want to be true to God. I want my faith to be sound. I want it to depend on God and since God is consistent and never changes, neither should my faith in Him. Neither should my worship or my reliance on Him.
I pray all this, for myself and also for you. That we may be able to be true to God, and that we may be able to discern what is real from what is just mere showmanship. I pray that we may have pure hearts that we may not be swayed or fooled. Wisdom, to enable us to see what is from God, and what is not. Hearts that are always yearning to please God so that we may be the light of the world.
Create in me a clean heart, O God,
and renew a right spirit within me.
Cast me not away from your presence,
and take not your Holy Spirit from me.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation,
and uphold me with a willing spirit.
Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
and sinners will return to you.
(Psalm 51:10-13 ESV)
Losing Self 
i want my life to count for eternity…feelings are so fleeting, but we can decide how we are going to live and WHO we are going to serve…great post!